Friday, September 16, 2016

20160916: jump, alphabet, carnival

I escaped the clutches of childhood only to jump like a horse on a carnival carousel and drown like an animal cracker in alphabet soup.

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Thursday, September 15, 2016

20160915: attic, stairs, bath, pepper

She took a bath to clean off the sneezing dust from her trip up the attic stairs. The shaved stubble from her legs floated in the water like black pepper.

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Friday, February 26, 2016

an even shittier emo poem

at
night

elusive
visions
envelope
nothingness.

sometimes
i
think
that
i
envisioned
regret,

except
my
own,

pretending
others
even
mattered.

Thursday, January 28, 2016

List of Books

Currently Reading
  • Mark Kurlansky, Salt
  • Soren Kierkegaard, Works of Love

Books Read in 2016 (List of Books Read before 2016)

Books to Read (alphabetical by author's last name)
  • Adams, Douglas - The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy
  • Doyle, Arthur Conan - Canon of Sherlock Holmes
  • Eugenides, Jeffery - The Virgin Suicides
  • Foer, Jonathan Safran - Everything is Illuminated
  • Hammett, Dashiell - The Maltese Falcon
  • Harari, Yuval - Sapiens
  • Heinlein, Robert - Time Enough for Love
  • Plath, Sylvia - The Bell Jar
  • Vonnegut, Kurt - Slaughterhouse-Five

Monday, January 4, 2016

Hey, 2016.

I feel I've been completely unprepared for the onset of the new year this time around and consequently so unceremoniously welcomed 2016. But here it is. Hey, 2016.

2015 was a strange year. I want to write it off as uneventful, but that's not true. My romantic life was a dream, but my familial/home life wasn't so much. I'm not sure if it was pursuing my romantic life that strained the sibling relationship, or if it was in experiencing the dream that I realized the flaws in it. All in all, it wasn't pleasant. I had to change my point of view and recalibrate the dynamics of our relationship, and I feel we've reached an unstable equilibrium. It's good enough for now. In 2016 we'll strive for time and space apart. I think that'll do us good in the same way that it currently facilitates our relationship with our parents.

I know at the beginning of 2015 I wanted to work on maintaining my individuality while in a relationship, but I don't think I worked on that very much this past year. I was too wrapped up in keeping my shit together outside of my dream of a romantic relationship. In the process I did learn a lot of about myself and what I value. Creativity and individuality is still important to me, but they clearly do not take center stage like they used to. I think the spirit of my life has matured and I feel more comfortable and happy espousing harmony and caring. It is a shift perspective, and I think at the beginning of 2015 I was scared of letting go of the identity I had built for myself when I was single. I was right in believing 2015 was the year that I would question, "who am I now?" It's only now that I'm coming to terms with the definition of the person I want to be going forward in my life. It's still scary, but I think this is a big turning point. I'm never going to lose my wont for introspection, and I still want to consciously craft myself into a better a person.

I already have a feeling that 2016 will be a very eventful year for me. It'll be work to transition myself into a new stage of life, but I'm looking forward to it. I think I already have more vision in terms of the long term plan.

For 2016 I hope I do not lose sight of all the things it took to get me this far. I know I'll be focused on setting the groundwork for my envisioned future, but I don't want to forget everything I've already learned about myself.

In addition, as cliche as it is, I really need to get back on the workout train. I don't feel as fit and healthy as I have in my past and I want to rectify that. I do believe I will need physical fortitude to get through everything that I think 2016 will throw at me!

As usual, I wish for peace, love, prosperity, & heath in the new year. Happy New Year!